"Let It Go"
A- A morning calm before I stand a cup of coffee in my hand.
B-"Brew or Americano?" he smiled and said "You!".
C-"Come on, You better hurry because you're late now honey".
I said with a pace palm ahead.
D-Day by day memories flashed back. I couldn't help but to cry. At that time he walked away in our wedding day was the saddest and painful times I've ever felt. It feels like the whole world pushed me down.
E-"Egg or Ham?"
my friend said.
"Hey!" You're out of you're mind again. How can you move on when you always think about him!He's gone 2 years passed when he turned his back at you."
F-For a moment of silence I bowed my head and said "Letting go is a choice but moving on is a Process." with tears fell down on my food.
G-"Got to go now"
I said with a forcing smile on my face.and she said,"Where?"
"In a place where I can let him go in my heart."
I said and left her without saying goodbye.
H-Hoping for nothing is the scariest thing.As I went to the place of nowhere , a place where I can
shout it out, let the pain heal and let him go.
I-Island of Hope they said, because most of the lonely people came here to let it go.The solemn place where can forget all the pain I carried for the past 2 years.
J-Just a step I walked when suddenly a loud voice got my attention.
"You!" he said
"Me?" I replied in my mind without turning to him.
K-Knowing that maybe someone he called and not me. But the man keep on shouting, so I turned in and a shocking eyes when I saw the man standing in front of me whom the man ran away on our wedding day.
L-Lowly grace bond the wind, hoping the pain will end.
"Hi, good day by the way" with a bright smile he shared.
And I'm like a statue looking at him, not a breath nor words.
"Ahm is it okay if I ask you a question?" he said.
But I'm still a statue after.
M-Minutes after, without a single word I said but back in my mind, a confusing questions back in.
"Is he that cold?"
"Why the heck he didn't remember me?" This questions awakened me when he said,
"Hmmm I'm seriously lost, I actually have a brain cancer and I easily forgot things and can't remember them back".
N-No reasons for hating him. I'm about to lost my consciousness but I force myself not to.
O-On a loud voice I cried and left back to the hotel and left him clueless what happened.
P-Packing my things up, without in my mind I did.
Q-Questions hanging up.
R-Running out of the hotel.
S-Seeking answers on my mind.
T-Taking all the memories back.
U-Until I realized of what he said. He had an incurable illness that's why he left me.
V-Vanishing the pain I felt but hating him was painful without knowing the reasons why he left me.
W-Wind blew softly but pain go slowly.
X-Xian's face appeared in my mind with a sudden whisper caught me.
Y-"You!" he whispered at me with a loud sob.
"I remember you! I'm sorry I left you 2 years ago." he said.
"I understand! You have an incurable illness, I understand why you did that because you love me, you didn't want me to get hurt." I said while covering my mouth with tears falling.
Z-Zero degrees, zero heart rate.Everything was gone, he's gone! In a single hour, minutes,and seconds I'm with him I didn't regret every single details.
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